Loneliness feeds my self destruction

Fading away has become my obsession

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silencedlambxx

I need to know how much I weigh. I've been thinking about visiting my half cousins because there is a good scale at their house :( I'm thinking maybe 125? I have no clue. I've been hardly eating so I could have drastically lost weight.
Fuhk

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silencedlambxx

I feel so empty.
Like a hollow shell of a girl.
Isn't it crazy how fast you can get consumed when you relapse? Isn't it terrifying?
I'm lost and clinging onto what I know; starving.

Help.

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silencedlambxx

Hello everyone!

I'm not new to lj but haven't been here for a while. Never posted in this group before so be kind!
I'll just tell a little about me then.
I'm 18, from the UK and am currently studying Art and Design.
I do have an eating disorder, diagnosed at 15 but had issues since I was 12 with food and my body.
Had a period of self recovery where I was eating well and starting to love myself for the first time then I just got triggered and the though of eating terrifies me.

So I'm looking for support and maybe some friends.

- Sarah xx

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silencedlambxx

Haven't worked out in a week and I lost 1 lb?

Dear body, thank you for weighing 132 lbs. Now get me to 115!!

I wish it worked that way .-. Oh well haha have a nice day all x ;) I know I will.

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silencedlambxx

For the first time ever I'm gonna show livejournal how I look.. Here goes!

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After a summer of losing no weight at all I have finally lost some weight! And all it took was me actually DOING something!
I'm at 133 at the moment. I haven't been under 129 at this height. (5"8) When I get there I will be so incredibly proud of myself!

Haven't posted in yonks so hello all :) (again..I need to stop leaving)

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silencedlambxx

I let him into my mind, to show how I feel. Trusted him with everything.
"I'll love you forever"
"Favorite person in the world"
Until you "don't feel the way you used to."

So much for how I feel.

Cut myself after not for several weeks, didn't really know what else I could do.

Everything reminds me of him.
I still love him.

Can't even describe my pain.

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silencedlambxx
I feel so disconnected today. Like I'm watching a movie that's through the eyes of a very lost and lonely girl. Nothing seems real anymore ... I'm losing my sense of reality.

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I never really started posting in my journal so I may as well start now! At least this way I can post whatever I like whenever I like. (Posting too much in one community makes me feel like a bad person.) .............................................................................. So on with my first post! I woke up this morning feel really depressed, nothing new there. But also really angry that I don't have any friends. I really bitched to my boyfriend about this and he just put up with it, as usual. I love how he accepts me so easily.<3 I calmed down a little and got a tad hungry so was going to have some breakfast ... thought about it ... then got scared that I'll end up eating too much today and got back into bed. So that's one meal down, two to go! ............. First post over with, I'll try and think of more things next time, Cherry. xx

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